Going Through The Emotions

I just came back from a business trip to Destin, Fla. It was beautiful, but bittersweet. It was the last place that Vernon and I shared a trip together a year ago. Last time, it was in February though. VJ couldn't believe work would send me away during Valentine's Day. So, he had to come with me....only solution. We had a good time, as we always did.

This time, walking on the beach without him was so hard. It brought back so many memories of fun things we shared there. I would take every opportunity to go out and walk along the shoreline, getting sand in between my toes and thinking happy thoughts. Sometimes I would sit for a while, cry, talk to him and wonder at God's immense creation and knowing that VJ was with Him.

God also graced me with a beautiful sunrise the morning I took some of Vernon's ashes out to scatter with successive waves; letting them take parts of him out every time they retreated. I prayed for God's healing peace, as only He can give, to help me get through this. I miss you so much Vernon.

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Wow, it's been a long time since i've posted. A lot has happened in the past 7 months since my dear husband Vernon passed (I don't know how I got here....parts of it was a blur). He was my rock. I've had a lot of adjustments to make in that time.

I miss him dearly. But I know where he's at. I got to walk with him to Heaven's door; but I had to stay behind. God's got more for me to do though....I'm still learning.

Spring time is just around the corner. Vernon loved to see everything greening up. Things would start bloomin and he would get anxious to get outside and putter around. Speaking of putterin'...another of his favorite things to look forward to was Golf! I'm going to miss our Sunday afternoon and anniversary golf games. I know he'd want me to keep doing the things we loved.

So, I've been putterin around here lately...with my latest sidekick....Buddy. He's an 11 month old, 86 lb (the last time I weighed him) German Shepherd. Vernon said if he ever got another German Shepherd, he'd name him Buddy...well, we've got one.

He keeps me pretty busy. He's like a 2 yr old....into everything, teething and re-landscaping parts of my yard. He's good company though.

I took him over to visit with the grandkids today. It took the little ones a bit to warm up to him since he's so big. They enjoyed him once he settled down.

I'm anxious now for the weather to warm up so we can spend more time outdoors, and to get back to my hobbies....lampwork, jewelry making and scrapbooking....more on those in future blogs. Later...